Holy shite

The big meeting is over.

The Chinese Center for Adoption Affairs has announced the new rules for China's international adoption program.

No more single applicants after May 2007.

Dossiers that have arrived before then will still be considered.

Originally, I had decided to use a differant agency. An agency which had an open single spot May 2007.

If I could type this while on my knees thanking jesus and my mother I would be.

My mother was the one who flew into my house one Sunday right before she left for Phoenix and gave me the newspaper with an ad announcing a local adoption seminar....saying "you should just go for fun. Who knows, maybe you might meet some people", knowing darn well that I already had an agency and was planning to start this process May 2007.

I attended the local seminar, nervous and scared to death because I was all alone, asked the following questions during the Q and A.

Me: "Do you accept applications from singles?"
Agency: "Yes"
Me: Do you have any single slots open now?"
Agency: "Well...actually yes, why don't you see me after the meeting"

After the meeting

Agency: "I had a single girl drop out of the program yesterday, I was going to see if a local family (single) wanted the slot first, before I advertised it nationwide, and you are the first person that has crossed my path looking for a single slot. Do you want it?".
Me: Bursting into tears....."yes"

After, I sat in my car crying and shaking because I knew at that very moment my life had changed forever. I had just made the decision to start this process now, not next year.

thank you mom.