Dream

I had a baby dream last night, the first one in a long time.

I had undergone a hospital procedure to become pregnant. I told my family I was pregnant and they were so mad and appalled because my being pregnant had halted my adoption proceedings. I was sooo sorry and distraught, and I remember my thinking was that since the wait was so long I could give birth to a baby in the meantime and still adopt my little one from China. Come to find out the procedure didn't work...so everyone could breath a sigh of relief, I was still able to adopt my baby. Then I was at some sort of family reunion/Tom Cruise's wedding (not even kidding) and my social worker pops over for a visit. It was chaos. There were babies there from Vietnam and China who had just been adopted, but their adoptive mothers were not taking care of them, neglecting them. I don't really remember much after that.

Thinking about it this morning, there are commonalities in my dream and what I would imagine my baby experiencing in her first days...fear, anger, sadness, tears, chaos, and stress.

I'm noting this date. If my daughter has been born, I am praying that she is safe, has been found, and is being cared for....